Can't not

Can’t not...

Ever since I looked away,

And went a different way,

Let my back face yours;

Knowing -- we now have different doors.

Seeing new faces,

Walking – with that same pace – on different bases;

Feels new -- yet old,

Playing a few -- different role.

Can’t stop but look back,

Dancing in my mind when thoughts slack;

Those memories remain buried deep,

Ringing before and after I sleep.

Made me chuckle, then smile,

 Like an idiot – insane for a while;

From a lazy stare to the board,

Sometimes I get bored, then I get caught.

Can’t not,

Let go history I brought;

Be free from fond’s besot,

Oh…god.

Can’t not,

Think of all sort;

Can’t not,

Miss you a lot.