Can't not

Can’t not...

Ever since I looked away,

And went a different way,

Let my back face yours;

Knowing -- we now have different doors.

Seeing new faces,

Walking – with that same pace – on different bases;

Feels new -- yet old,

Playing a few -- different role.

Can’t stop but look back,

Dancing in my mind when thoughts slack;

Those memories remain buried deep,

Ringing before and after I sleep.

Made me chuckle, then smile,

 Like an idiot – insane for a while;

From a lazy stare to the board,

Sometimes I get bored, then I get caught.

Can’t not,

Let go history I brought;

Be free from fond’s besot,

Oh…god.

Can’t not,

Think of all sort;

Can’t not,

Miss you a lot.

Distance (It's Okay)

No sound,

Looking around;

So silent,

So stagnant...

Distant -- from my sight,

Existing deep inside;

Sketches in black and white,

They whisper then hide.

I wonder,

And I ponder;

Whenever,

And wherever.

What I could listen,

Moments I could earn;

If I am there,

Breathing their air.

Bend me the light,

Let me have you in sight;

Take me for a flight,

To get there -- no matter day or night.

Or let me hold,

And take away the cold;

From the world in my palms,

Or embraced in my arms.

But it's okay,

For there's always a way;

To put distance away,

Out of our way.

But it's okay,

For you can still hear words I say;

Rewind memories and thoughts of yesterday,

Even see you without delay.

And it's okay,

Because within ourselves our bonds will stay;

Through times of hardship and of play,

Though there's distance -- it's still okay.

Till we meet one day,

Look forward from today;

Despite the distance -- day by day,

Stay together -- then it's okay...

Before you're away from home...

Well, this is gonna be my first post which isn't a poem or video. I was a little busy cleaning and packing earlier today and actually made a list of things my housemates and I brought down to Subang Jaya when I first shifted here. Things that I thought those of you who are leaving home would wanna consider bringing. Right, you can say it,"I love you, Sebastian!", " You saved my life!", etc...Hope this will enlighten you my dear friend! If there's anything that you have in mind to add to my list, do tell me so I can update it. And, you're welcome...

* For every category of things to bring, think of what you need and want to do while there, places you'll need or want to go, the 5W and 1H thing, u know...


For your accommodation & washroom
- Bed sets and sheets( at least two sets of sheets for convenience) clothes rack, pegs, hangar( for both dry hanging and in your cupboard), pieces of cardboard or paper to layer your drawers or cupboard( just in case), insect repellants(especially for cockroaches), air freshener?, floor mat, plastic bags(for garbage bin, wastepaper basket, clothes, books, etc...), toiletries( just look at what u have in ur toilet now? toilet rolls, towel, cotton buds?, hair gel?, mini basket for your own shampoo, toothbrush and stuff because you're probably sharing the toilet with someone else...so u can only bring it in when u shower, otherwise there's a possibility that your things become communal, swt...unless u don't mind..., and etc...u know...), rags, pail/ bucket and old cloths(for cleaning time to time), basket for your dirty clothes, medicine and supplements?, calender, torchlight?, alarm clock, hooks( to temporarily hang your clothes), laptop( if you have which is helpful), printer?, all your electronical devices' CHARGERS( ppl tend to forget this), snacks, instant noodles and drink packets or tins (milo, milk, cereal, etc...), your bedroom set( maybe at least 2 sets of casings for convenience) and LASTLY maybe something from home to ease your homesickness at the beginning and from time to time( like family photo, ur teddy bear to hug? lol...)

For kitchen, laundry area, the rest of your home unit
- Kettle, Induction cooker, multipurpose cooker, rice cooker, toaster?(handy for a quick morning breakfast unless you wanna feed on cereal 24/7? your choice...), utensils, plate, bowl, cup, clothes iron n the board, detergent or washing powder and brushes( for shoes also).

All the "on and with you s"
- U should know things like wallet, hp, watch, clothes, towels, socks, shoes...etc
- U might forget s like umbrella, bag for classes, water bottles, stationaries, teeth retainers n contact lenses( if you do have), earphones/headphones (for use in library or at home when its late) and also maybe ear plugs( to aid you when you wanna sleep or study and its noisy).


Personal advices
- You might wanna mark your underwear, etc...so it doesn't get mixed up with others especially after drying.
- Remember to bring outfits including socks ,ties, belts, shoes for different occasions such as formal wear, swimming( if u wanna?), sweater or jacket( you never know how cold certain classes may be), and other occasions.
- Do consider bringing materials for your hobby and leisure( badminton racquets n shuttles, football?, guitar, mp3 player, etc....) or you probably will bring it the next round.
- Bring rubberbands, tapes, glue and scissors, can be really handy for quick repairs and organize things like wires?, tie food plastic bags and etc...
- After you receive the keys to your room, you might wanna consider duplicating them and giving them to someone trustworthy or hide it somewhere other than your room( so that if you accidentally lock your room with your keys inside, you have a solution my fren, don't laugh, it happens).
- Consider bringing another lock for your room cupboard( break-ins actually happen more often than you think, and your room door is not some high-tech security-intelligent barrier so having an extra lock helps at least by being another protection for valuables).
- For guys and girls also, you may want to carry a pepper spray for security, its not only for girls, seriously...very useful for the tactic " hit and run".
- Maybe you want to bring cameras of any kind...
- Don't sweat it, even if you forget, you can always buy them...except for those you can't like maybe your fees bill and other official things you need to even register for your college or school....good luck!

And when you're there, open up and be involved, you'll do fine....feeling at home in no time. Take care and all the best then, pal...

Thanks, PM4!

Thanks, PM4!

If we were given a chance,
To change anything – in these 6 months;
There wouldn’t be one,
All that’s been shared – all that’s been done.

When pranks go wild,
With things like rats, spray and pedophile;
And when it gets loud – so unbearable,
Atmosphere uncontrollable – all so adorable.

Also our livelihood,
Full of joy – all’s good;
The way we get together,
With him ,with her.

Thanks for being so wonderful,
For being unique and beautiful;
For making this journey,
30K! -- well worth each penny.

Thanks for all those memories,
Of laughter, teamwork and no worries;
And for the performances,
By you, me and us.

And even after we shine as a team,
When we all become what we dream;
Still hold on and get together,
To share pages of memories – all we can remember.

And Hey!
Do tell us -- where on what day;
Wanna be there – don’t wanna miss a thing ,
Not a toilet roll, not a bromance nor moments spent crazi-ing.

Feel so lucky – just wanna dance,
To be by chance or circumstance;
Be in the best class,
PM4 – where things are meant to last.

Our friendship with you,
Is a journey – from our view;
Beginning at forever,
Ending at never.

Missing you,

Sebby & Gonna-Be-Leavers.

Happy mother's day

Hey mom, 

It's me again;

Though I can only by words come,

You know my thought always remain.

Thanks for the times,

Of care and concern;

And the moments of honey and limes,

From which I grew up with -- I lived and learn.

For the lessons,

And exposure;

About how something twists and turns,

And to be sure -- and to assure.

Love you,

Very very much;

Love you,

More than you can judge.

With this I want you to know,

That even after this date;

We'll stand by you and never go,

We'll make you proud, you just wait.

Mom,

We love you;

Mom,

Happy mother's day -- just for you!

~ Your Children n Half-a-Century Man ~

To The Summit!

It all began,

When none saw what we can;

From a zero,
We nourish our inner hero.

And look at us today,

All can see -- how our will has pay;

That the skies are now closer,

We start to shine -- from once a glimmer.

Though the climb never ceases being tough,

Still our oppositions plays it rough;

Falling and rising over and over,

With knowledge of that need -- for our forever.

For the prize and promise our future beholds,

With hope and faith in our very own goals;

Will be complete with honey, tea and bread,

Sweet, blissful and resourceful throughout the dates.

To the top!

Till then we'll never stop;

To the summit!

We take the lead -- defy defeat.

To Bro n Sis

Yes,
It's me;
Though time isn't best,
The day's still gonna be -- what it's meant to be.

Thanks for being the ones who I can trust,
The ones that I can be sure are gifts to our family;
The ones that hold it up and at times adjust,
Our family's atmosphere -- loud but lovely.

And you, can and will,
Although at times, annoying;
But still,
To us...loving -- even if it isn't revealing.

To you,
My brother;
To you,
My sister.

All the best,
Do your best;
Have birthday's best,
You're the best!

Love,

Chicken

Your One

YOUR ONE

Ever since the day,

On you my eyes lay;

Inside me you never fade away,

Pondering of you and me -- our mights and may…

Till this moment,

My thoughts still adamant;

Still I can’t let go;

The smile, that chuckle and times when you’re low.

And when you’re tired,

When you’re hurt,

When you’re cold;

I just really want to listen -- really want to hold.

Your stare caresses my heart,

And steals it-- before we depart;

Your voice so sweet, your warmth so sentimental,

My fond can’t quit – thinking of you, my girl…

My other half you are,

Whether you’re near or far;

Without you seems impossible,

For you are truly irreplaceable.

So I want to know,

How to be your hero;

Because wherever you go,

My heart will follow.

To be the one you trust and love,

For you’re my only -- ideal one on earth;

If you would share your life with the one,

I want to be Your One.

Sajna

When you smile, I smile with you,
When you cry, I feel it too,
You are my soul, my heart coming out to you,

Be my eyes when I can�t see,
Be my voice when I can�t speak,
Be my life when darkness creeps on me,

Hoo, sajna sajna sajna re,
Hai just sajna sajna sajna re

Sajna sajna sajna re
Hai just sajna sajna sajna re

Throw the stars that shine so bright,
Cross the sky and cross the night,
Making ways to be right by your side

Hold me close don�t let me go
Hold me tight don�t you say no
Save the love we have for ever more

Ho, sajna sajna sajna re,
Hai just sajna sajna sajna re

Sajna sajna sajna re
Hai just sajna sajna sajna re

Save me, when my dream catches fire
(Spare?) me, in my only desire
Wake me, when the pain is over
Take me, now (Take me, now) ...2

When you smile, I smile with you,
When you cry, I feel it too,
You are my soul, my heart coming out to you,

Be my eyes when I can see,
Be my voice when I can speak,
Be my life when darkness creeps on me,

Through the stars that shine so bright,
Cross the sky and cross the night,
Making ways to be right by your side

Hold me close don�t let me go
Hold me tight don�t you say no
Save the love we have for ever more...